4/05/2010

Listening

I talk too much sometimes. I usually vent or talk about me and my past. I know I talk too much. I sometimes forget that I need to listen and observe. Be there for people and allow them to cry. Like losing a daughter.. That's pretty rough. Or having a father who doesn't care, or seems not to care. Wanting to fulfill a dream, but having something pulling you back. Love, family, dreams.
My generation and those after me have become a people that have been forgotten. It seems crazy to think of that. Businesses keep making new things. Its for us isn't? Churches say that they are working for the next generation (or something like that). We have stopped thinking though. We have stopped caring. We have stopped trying. We've become a lazy people. My generation and those after me are stuck in the virtual world, unrealistic and relative.
We are also a people of loneliness. We don't choose to be though. We allow ourselves to be distracted. We want to forget reality. I see things I don't want to see, so what do I do? I detach myself from the situation. We're really good at that. I busy myself so much, so I won't allow myself to think. Then when I have free time I try to fill it up, so I don't have to think. When I think I remember what I have seen. I remember the late night cries from my mum. I remember the arguments between friends. I remember the little boy that is left alone, though his parents are there. I remember me.
I decided to start listening. Listening to my clock tick tock. Listening to the birds outside. Waiting.

2 comments:

Celeste said...

From the heart. This is how I see your blogs, and I can relate so much to this post. You have such a heart of compassion and your words are so honest. I had stopped posting my deep thoughts on my [myspace] blog because I just thought no one was listening or reading, but I never stopped encouraging others. Recently I decided that I WILL go back to posting what I think about, what I feel, what's on my heart because there is somebody or somebodies that can benefit from them. We don't experience things and go through things for nothing, there is a purpose and reason, and if I can help one person with who I am, then that to me is an accomplishment that would not be achieved if I said nothing. Your writings are beautiful. God bless.

ajnrileysmommy said...

great thoughts!