Social worker? How about missionary...

Okay, so this was the first one that took my interest, but I chose another one first because the colors were just so pretty, I clicked it and it told me I should be an artist. It said I love breaking the rules, and I hate anything that keeps me within the box. But this one totally fits me better. Anyway, try out the quiz.

You Should Be a Social Worker

You are deeply caring and empathetic.
You are able to take on other people's problems as if they were your own.
Sensitive and intuitive, you understand human emotions well.
Helping others gives you the most joy in life. You feel like it's your purpose in life.

You do best when you:

- Have a lot of responsibility
- Greatly impact someone's life with your work

You would also be a good philanthropist or stay at home parent.


Leave the country

Can't you hear the people
Screaming, crying,
to leave the land
that we see no more vision.
You are our leader
selected to represent the majority
but you still do not listen
to reason.
Leave, nothing is working
and more are dying to
a plan they do not understand
and do not want to
implement. Leave!


The Five love languages

I took this quiz because I wanted to know what my love language is and I totally have the same results as Lauren, we brazilians are all alike, haha.

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch: 12
Quality Time: 9
Acts of Service: 4
Words of Affirmation: 4
Receiving Gifts: 1


Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz


I know I'm not alone on the subject when I say I struggle because I know everyone has their own struggles. I don't know what else to say. I'm struggling right now.
"The heart has reason that reason does not know." My heart knows things, I guess because the Holy Spirit lives within me, within my heart, but I don't understand why my heart is joyful when all i see is the world. I see myself being laughed at, I see couples making googly eyes (being unequally yoked), I see people doing drugs or drinking, and at times I just want to give up and join (of course not the part of being laughed at, but laughing at others.) I don't do it because I know where that will end up, wanting more and never feeling satisfied, but I still want to feel like I'm a part of something. Then I always remember that I am hated because Jesus was hated on first. I will forever be laughed at because of my faith in Jesus, if I give in I'll be a hypocrite because I believe in one thing, but do another. I'm not perfect, not even close, I don't even think I'm perfect. I fail. Without Christ nothing holds together, without God I fail.
I believe in Jesus because I know I fail and I need someone that will lift me up from the valleys. I think being labeled a Christian shouldn't give the idea to non believers that I am or think that I am perfect. Christianity itself tells you to pick up your cross, or in other words die, daily. I don't mean physically, but I mean in a sense to give up who you are, stop any control of your life and give it to Christ because, again, we fail without him, we are nothing without him. We are labeled nothing without him.
Yet I can't pick up my cross and follow him daily. I'm in a struggle within myself to choose from flesh v. rightiousness. It's not that I don't know right from wrong, its just that the wrong seems delicious at times, but it is only decieving me.
I struggle, I'm not perfect, I'm in need of a hand, so I call on Christ.



Okay, so i looked more into the pro-choice and I was wrong, it onyl has to do with abortion issues and women rights. Well I read more about pro-choice and I fell upon a site that really helped me understand about abortion. Here's the site http://www.prochoice.com/, you could also go to wikipedia or other sites, but these helped me understand more about abortion.
Some people are thinking why am I so obsessed about this now? Well I used to be the Children's music director at my church. I loved dancing with the kids and it helped bring kids out of there shell, being shy. It hurt me to leave my church because of school, but I had to move on. I love kids! Sit down with one kid for about an hour and you'll be a kid again. They are so innocent and they show their emotions, unlike adults and teenagers do today.
Everyone is unique and I can't help think about every child that has been aborted. There are other ways, you just need to be informed!


Sinful lifestyle and faith

God has just shown me how great His wisdom is and how foolish I am.
I wrote about gay rights and about abortion in my last blog, but I forgot to include in my understanding, God's Word. It says somewhere in the Bible, I don't remember where at the moment, that we should not accept the sinful lifestyle of others. What an idiot I can be. So here is my stake in the ground, Marriage is between a man and a woman, no man with a man and no woman with a woman. So there. And with abortion, that's killing a human being, they will one day breath life, so how can anyone say that it is not a living creature. I still believe in pro choice because there is a lot more things attached to that like religion, but I don't believe that abortion is a part of that pro choice because it is murder. I do not condemn you, those who have abortion, if you need help or if your afraid that your boyfriend or father may kill you because of the baby, don't be afraid to ask for help, you always have a choice, but abortion shouldn't be a choice.
Another thing that I wanted to address was my faith. I've been reading lately the book of Acts, trying to get the feel of the early church and what was happening, being a history major and all. Well I kept on reading how apostles like Peter, Paul, Barnabas, and so on just kept preaching in synagogues and in the streets. In my head I'm like "yeah I want to do that, I want to bring people to Christ." Well I felt the Holy Spirit telling me to get up and preach on the train going home. I couldn't get myself up to do it. I was scared about what might happen, they'd probably laugh at me or throw insults at me. I felt so ashamed that i couldn't do it. I felt that God was telling me "Oh you of little faith, why are you so afraid(Matthew 8:26)?" I felt like I was being rebuked. The thing is I do have little faith. I don't leave my life in God's hands, I'm scared.
How will I ever be a missionary? God, I don't know what to do. I've lived this imaginary life for about four years and now reality has hit me. I am so foolish, I want to be called Sophia, but I am not worthy of the name. I want to be wise, not only knowing, but doing. I do not want to be of little faith. God I'm sorry I failed.
I'm sorry.


Things I've been thinking about

So I was supposed to go on my first missions trip to Brazil during spring break, but I'm afraid its not going to happen. The missionary that was to host us and take care of us has to take care of his sick mother. Very sad, but true.
So since the Recife, Brazil missions trip is cancelled there are other opportunities to help people. There is one where we'll be on a missionary boat in the Caribbean or going to a mission trip in Peru, Guatemala, New Mexico, Arizona, and other such places. Please pray for me and my teammates.
Pro. 21:30 "There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan that can succeed against the LORD."
Anyway, in other news I've started thinking over me living on campus next semester. If I join the honors program, which i might do, I would have to live on campus, there is no way I'll be able to catch up on my reading while living at home with my dad. Last week i was praying about it, and out of the blue my dad, who didn't know I was thinking about moving on campus next semester, asked me how much it is to live on campus. I was quite shocked and I told him, he said that it wouldn't be a bad idea of me living on campus next semester. So I'm still praying over it, but I'm pretty sure God has answered my prayer because I've stopped worrying about it.
Another thing that has been on my mind is the world. I don't mean the entire world, but I mean worldly v. godly kind of thing. I am all against abortion and I do think that living in a homosexual lifestyle is sin. But I am too about pro choice and gay rights. Well you might think I'm trying to be politically correct, but I think this brings some controversy to Christin believers. How can I be against abortion, but pro life? How can I say homosexuality is sinful, but let the gays have their rights? Well I've been thinking about this for the past 2 weeks, maybe longer, but on and off, and I think I finally came to an understanding.
I've come to agree that the world will never change and that it will always choose the flesh over the spiritual. But this doesn't mean I can't change people. I can not change the world, but if I change one person, I've changed their world. Abortion is something of the world, I will fight against abortion till I die or if Jesus comes back down to take his people to heaven with him. But I am not against prochoice. God has given us free will, we can either choose our own fleshly desires or godly desires. If we had no choice then we can all believe Calvin and that it is by God’s choice that we go to hell and heaven and that John 3:16 is all wrong.
So it also says in the Bible that living a homosexual lifestyle is sin, its abominable. Well does that mean that they do not have rights? Murder is sin, so I guess the government is doing something right about taking away their rights, but lying is also sin, there’s no rights taken away from us, me included. Sin is sin. I don’t agree with the homosexual lifestyle, but that is something that is part of the world, I can’t change the world.
So what do I do? Well pray to God that He will bring people in your life that you will or already love and make a difference in their life by showing them Jesus Christ. And you know what? Jesus takes care of the rest.
John 3:17 “For God did not send His son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.” Who are we to condemn? Be an instrument for God and help save people from being condemned at death.
I'm out.


My road then God's road

I read some one's "about me" today. I really liked it.
"I am who I am because I choose to be that man...And now I beg that God undo that man in hopes of his re-creating me into a peg that would humbly serve his purpose!"
We all grow up to be people that we think we should be or want to be, it's our own free will. But then something happens when we put our lives into someone else's hands, we are no longer in control of our own life, but someone else is. We let that someone or God to redo or work with what we have and shape it to what they or God want it to be.
With God, the second we give our lives to Christ it is no longer ours, it is a "living sacrifice." To serve Him and to worship Him is what He wants and His will is "good, pleasing, and perfect."
I know God will use all my experiences and gifts to his use. Though i chose another road first than Christ's road, God uses everything for His glory.
Anyway, give your life to God and humbly serve Him, He is the only "way, truth, and life." I'm out


God will provide.

I'm so dumb.
I'm being a little over exaggerated but when I'm in a pickle, God won't let me be myself if I can't do it alone.
Just last week I was doing calculations of my bills and I was $40 short, what can i do? So instead of putting it in God's hands I put them on my own. I took $40 from my credit card instead of debit to make sure my dad would pay for it instead of me. Kind of spoiled, but what can I do, I was short.
Today a friend of mine was looking for a graphing calc. and I so happened to have one. I bought it for a cheap price and so I sold it to my friend for a cheaper price. I asked for $40 without even thinking about how much I needed. Some people might say it was an unconscious thing, but I totally know it was a God thing.
So the moral of this story, leave it in God's hands he'll provide enough.
I'm out.


Find yourself

How do we find ourselves?
How do we answer "Describe yourself?"
Do we go crazy looking for the answer or do we just analyze ourselves?
Psalm 139:1 "O LORD, you have searched me and you know me." And the psalm goes on telling the reader that God knows us and why we do such things.
I earnestly want to know myself. I want to know EVERYTHING, but that's just my personality.
Why did God create me this way?
Everyone wants to understand themselves, everyone wants to know who they really are. Yeah there are confident people in this world, they might already have found themselves in who they are, or... its just a mask.
I'm at a loss. If I knew who I was, I'd know every flaw, I'd know my strengths and my weaknesses. If I knew all my weaknesses, then I would know how to compensate for them and rest it in God's hands or maybe I won't... maybe I say that now, but when the time comes, I'd take it upon myself to be fully independent.
I wish i could give you an answer on how to find your true self as you can see in my writing I doubt myself, but I'm just like everyone else, I'm different. No one is exactly the same, so even if I told you how, that would be how I found myself, not how I found your true self. '
So here's the only advice that I'm giving you on this subject, don't buy any book or magazine or take time to look at a horoscope or take a quiz, your wasting your money and/or time on what you could be using to live life and look for yourself.

Who are we truly?


Amazing Grace

First, Happy New Year!
Now, down to business. Most Americans, for the most part, have gotten over racism. At least I know I condemn no one by color or nationality, only by what they do. I can't understand what it means to be racist. But in a country not so far away, the darker you are or the more northerner, the poorer and dumber you are thought of.
My mother is from Sào Paulo, Brazil (south) and my father is from Paraiba, Brazil (north). So what?
I'll tell you what, its a disgrace for someone from the south to even think about dating or even marrying someone from the north. Its a disgrace for a white woman to love a black man.
There is no segregation of schools, there is no sitting at the back of the bus, but there is a segregation of the mind.
I can't even comprehend that because I've never seen it. I've read about it in my history book, I've seen it in movies, but I've never seen it in reality. I see a black man and a white man dressed in a suit, and I see a black teenager or white teenager with a kid.
But just because I've never seen it, like I've never seen God, doesn't mean that slavery, segregation, and God is not there.
Slavery still happens, even within the US borders; segregation still happens, even within the US borders. Just because I haven't seen it, doesn't mean its not there. Open your eyes and do something about it.
Be the change don't be ignorant!