Make it your ambition.

"Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business and to work with your hands, just as we told you, so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody." 1 Thes. 4:11-12

What does ambition really mean?
Well in English it means
"an earnest desire for some type of achievement or distinction, as power, honor, fame, or wealth, and the willingness to strive for its attainment"
in Greek it means
"to strive earnestly, make it one's aim"

Our philosophy in life should be centered around these verses. Why would Paul write this if it shouldn't?
Lead a quite life, in Proverbs is says that the words of the wise are like jewels to the ears. A synonym to ambition is study, and if you practice being wise, usually the effect of wisdom is silence.
Mind your own business is usually a tough one. I sometimes can't help but get in peoples business, and usually it brings me some downfall, first with my reputation because people might think I just want to hear the gossip or slip something that i shouldn't have said, and secondly it makes people abuse you, not in a physical way, but they just start using you without any thought to your wellbeing. It doesn't mean you shouldn't help people, just do it wisely.
Work with your hands, with the technology that we use today how do we use our hands instead of electronics? Well we shouldn't use people either. To mind your own business helps to be not be abused, but on the other hand you shouldn't use people either, people are unreliable. You could get your best friend, but you still can't solely rely on them, they are eventually going to fall.
In the 12th verse of Thes. it says that "so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody." It really sums up the verse before. Lead a quite life, mind your own business, and work with your hands. If you want to be respected you should follow this, and if you want to be independent follow this, but it does not mean independence from God just independence from people.

Make this your philosophy in life, and you won't go wrong.

A letter

Father,
I can't bring myself to be dependent on others... I can't bring myself to be completely dependent on You.
I desire to be cared for, but yet I desire to live my own life.
I don't accept charity when it is givin... yet you give me all that I need and want. I want it.. I want it all, but I keep myself from it.
My heart feels burdened... I want it gone, but yet i refuse to lay it on your shoulders.
My mind is in a traffic jam.. I want it to be free, yet I refuse to tell you my intimate thoughts.
My life is boring... I want adventure, yet I can't let go of my convenient life.
Change me, mold me, transform me from what I was taught as a child. I don't want to be Ms. Independent, I don't want to be alone, I don't want convenience.
Please keep your eyes from my past mistakes, my present mistakes, and my future mistakes. Love me, delight in my good, carry me, save me.
Lift this stench that i carry, I don't want it, I don't need it, it keeps me awake at night, and when I take a shower it still comes back. I don't want to take any more showers, I want to be cleaned from this stench forever more.
Psalm 27:8 "My heart says of you, "Seek his face!" Your face, Lord, I will seek."
And I won't stop looking until I find it.

Your beloved Child,
...

Does God need us?

Well i wrote this about a year ago and I've never shared it with anyone, so I decided to share it. Hope you guys like it. If something is incorrect just tell me and I'll edit it. For "He who ignores discipline despises himself, but whoever heeds correction gains understanding." Proverbs 15:32

So why were we created??
Really God didn't need us, right??
Duh, if He did, then we would be a complete disaster because we can't give Him anything because He gave us everything. So why were we created?
I remember when I was a kid I wanted ferby's, I wanted to be 16 to get my driver's license, I wanted to be tall enough to reach the cabinets in the kitchen where the cookies were. I know most of us wanted to do or get many things, and we still do. I know now that I want to leave my house to a college. I really don't need to leave, there's one right here, FIU. There's a lot of wants, how do we know that God just WANTED us? He really doesn't need us, but He enjoys when we praise Him, He delights when we do good deeds for Him. I enjoy many things like the movies, a concert, junk food, but I don't need them in my life, we are here for the enjoyment of God. Don't take me the wrong way, we're not just a show, God Almighty loves us. We're His children that got the solo in a band concert, or the kid that got chosen to be on the baseball team; the chess team; got an award for math, science, english, He enjoys that we reached a goal and are presenting it to Him.
Scripture says "The Lord your God in your midst, the Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing"(Zephaniah 3:17).How encouraging.
He will love us no matter what, there is no sin big enough that our Father won't forgive.
But that comes to another point in our life. Are we willing to give up everything back to God? It's difficult I know that first hand. But we have to remember that God will not give us anything that we can't handle, He will always be there every step of the way.
"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze." Isaiah 43:2
Notice that God doesn't promise to keep you out of all trouble. He simply promises to be with you in the midst of it, even through death!
Give Christ all your troubles, lay it on Him. He died for them why shouldn't we take advantage of that?

My Sister

Well I've decided to use this blog to make people think rather than talk about me. My life is boring anyway. The last two blogs are all about making you think and I hope you guys read them and the ones to come, but before I turn in the towel about talking about myself I wanted to write one more thing and that'll be it.
As only some of you know my family has been going through some changes. The biggest thing would have to be my sister. She lives in central Florida now at a place called Teen Challenge. I thought coming to college and leaving Miami would make me releived to leave my sister, she was just a pain in my butt a lot of the time, but lately she's all i think about. I went to a concert called Wayfest this past weekend and for some reason I wanted my sister just next to me enjoying it with me. There was a speaker and I was kind of hoping she was there because he was moving in an emotional and spiritual sense. I wanted to be holding her hand like sisters would. I miss her terribly, I have no idea how much i could stress over it. I've been feeling like I've been wanting to cry, even more, hold her and cry with her. My cousin said that I'm beginning to lover her, no I've always loved her, but in a sisterly way. Now I love her in a more sisterly intimate way and an unconditional love, agape.
The thing is only about 3-4 people will read this and I will still be left stressful thinking about her. I've been going to the gym, running, trying to busy myself daily with things to do, but I can't stop thinking about her. It'll be nice if you guys pray for her, but I need someone, I need to cope somehow and talking seems the only way right now. I could tell stories about when we were little girls and teenagers and the stupid things we did together. If you would like to help me out it would be gratefully appreciated. Anyway, you guys have a wonderful, blessed week. I'm out.

Simple or Wise? You decide.

Proverbs 1:22 "How long will you simple ones love your simple ways?"

In the Hebrew language to be called simple was literally to be called foolish. I would rather be called wise because then i would be someone people looked up to, they would consider me someone that lived for example.

Usually I get really pissed off when I see a movie like Hotel Rwanda, Blood Diamond, War Lords, etc. And I chose the wrong day to watch a movie like that, they make me think too much. These movies give me too much passion for the things of God. They make me think that I could make a difference. It makes me think that God has a purpose for everyone, for my life. Don't you hate when your whole body, your heart just burns and you start to hate yourself because we live our life like we'll never die while other people in other countries are suffering everyday, dieing everyday. I sometimes feel like a hypocrite. I cry that I didn't "get it my way" or I didn't get the class or car I wanted. Or even worse I throw away food if even one fly crosses upon it. I start to hate myself when i watch people suffer on TV.

I hope that little intro made you think, I hope you feel that burning in your heart. Jesus said to pick up your cross and follow him, that means being persecuted, standing alone from the crowd, being called names, having little to no money, but the great thing about all those things is that we will not be remembered for it, we will be remembered for standing strong when everything seemed lost, it means being called God's child, it means going to Heaven.

So when you start to hate yourself that's a sign that you should be doing something for God and not for yourself. Don't be called simple because you'll never be remembered, stand strong and "Dare to be Wise" you'll be remembered.

God's glory

"Not to us, but to Your name be the glory"

How we sometimes glorify ourselves without any thought of our Creator. Just two weeks ago I volunteered to help out with a conference at school. I got to meet the singer of the band, i told him how they were doing great up there. And he said to me "It is all for God's glory." He didn't say thanks, he didn't say cool, he said for God's glory. God created us, He created us all with different gifts, without God we do not exist, without God we do not have talent nor gifts. Glorify God in all that you do, and when someone tells you great job, don't say thanks, say "All for God's glory."

I need to focus.

In my new life I've gone through many changes, some good and many bad. When I accepted Christ as my LORD and Savior, my whole life had new meaning. Then I got my first boyfriend and life seemed perfect, he wasn't a Christian, but I had Jesus, i was fine by myself or so I thought. When he broke up with me I thought life was a disaster. My Junior year in high school I joined a group of friends in band. We were considered the "cool group" just because we associated ourselves in parties and we were close friends with the guard and drummers. I went to parties, drank, and still I thought I was fine with Christ. For many of those months I didn't cry, I became what people wanted me to be, I was part of the norm. Then I couldn't handle it anymore, I was becoming depressed, if I wasn't depressed already and I went back to church. I went to the spring retreat, associated myself back with Christian friends, and stopped doing marching band. I even went on a missions trip over the summer, I became an active church member. Then my senior year I became a hypocrite, I went to church on Sundays dancing with the kids, but the night before I would be at parties again and drinking yet again. I didn't turn away completely from my past life. This past summer has been a sort of transformation. I did much crying, I then gave my controlling self to Christ yet again. I didn't want to control it anymore. Since college has started life has become more at ease, nothing uncomfortable. But lately I've become unfocused, doing stuff more out of tradition then doing it because it was important to me. I don't know why but last night while I was at service I remembered a dream I had about me singing to blue birds. The pastor had mentioned birds and it just became a flashback. He said the LORD can give us a voice as beautiful as a bird, but the LORD, in my dream, gave me a voice more beautiful than a bird. If I lose my job, get F's in all my classes, lose all my friends, get stuck in traffic, I'm going to Heaven anyway. I shouldn't let things distract me or let things out of my control wear me out, I'm going to Heaven and all this will just be a bad dream. I'm going to Heaven! I need to focus on heavenly things, I need to surround myself with good Christian influence, I need to focus on what God wants of me rather than what people want from me. God wants you to focus on the long run, not the short run of things. Watch the video I posted in my last post, hopefully it'll soften your heart about my hypocrite lifestyle. Well I'm out.

Jesus is always calling us

Lately I haven't been feeling I've been giving my all to God. It might be my selfishness, pride, loss of focus, stuff that shouldn't be in my head, I don't know what, but this video that i saw was awesome. I'm glad my friend Daniela showed it to me, it's very powerful. I know Jesus is always there, I just need to trust in him and no one else.